I never thought this day would come. Nearing the end of my college career, and my collegiate tennis career.  For about 5 years, this is what my life has been. Revolved around tennis, classes, friends, college life. Too many memories to even touch on, too many friendships, but only a few that I will keep with me forever.  Too many exhilarating moments, laughter, relationships, ups and downs and the list can go on and on.  It was comfortable.  I knew what I was doing everyday, for the next 4 years.  I don’t want it to end.  I wish I could start over, and have all of the good times again, even with the bad.  Nothing will compare to my years here.  They are unforgettable.  I am so grateful for everyone that has made my years here so amazing.  I am grateful that my time at Minnesota was shortened so that it brought me to this amazing place, with these amazing people now in my life.  Everything truly happens for a reason, and that reason was for me to be here, to grow here, and to have these countless experiences here.  I would not have grown as fast and been forced to step out of my comfort zone if I did not come here.  I have learned so much about myself.  About relating with people, relationships, life and lessons. I’m so glad that I took that step into the dark in coming here.  I was nervous, scared, fearful of opening myself with people I did not know in a place far away from the comfort of my family and home.  But I did- and it was the best decision of my short life.  I’ve grown to feel so comfortable with my friends here.  Comfortable with myself, with who I am.  I’ve grown to love myself, and share my love with the people I care about.  And that is a big thing for me to say, as I could not have said that about myself a few years ago.  

I will miss just about everything about college life.  I will miss my teammates. The road trips, the feeling before a home match, clinching a 4-3 match for my team, hotel stays and van talks, seeing the girls and being a part of a team everyday, 7 am weights, daily practices, weekend parties, morning recaps of the night before, not knowing what the night will bring, and sooooo much more.  

I know things will change, and change is okay.  Our lives will continue, new experiences will happen for us at different times and we will still all be in each others lives.  These moments won’t be forgotten, at least not by me, because they are forever engraved in my heart.

It is a sad time- knowing that I won’t play another tennis match for UNCG, knowing college tennis is over-and that nothing will quite compare to it.  But, it is also exciting, to not know what is next for me, to not know what other amazing things are to come into my life. So that is what I will hold on to and treasure, along with the friendships and memories made here.

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barbourje:

how great it will be to come home from work to you in the kitchen making yourself a snack, or singing in the shower, or just coming in from walking the dog. i don’t know who you are though or where our home will be. but i will love you. i already love every inch of you. 

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hitomitiger:

Where do we go?
After we die, where do we go?
Sometimes I imagine
A billion little stars
Spinning out towards the edge of the universe
Embracing us, whispering,
Love, welcome home.

How do we live?
After we die, how do we live?
Sometimes we weave life into
A million little tapestries
We never even knew existed,
Tapestries we sew into
The hearts of our beloved.

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amidnight-dreary:

I was that girl
who waited,
sat biting
her nails
chugging the
oak poison,
her drink
of choice.

I waited there
for days on end
until those days
grew to weeks
then months
and when the
years began
to slowly fade
away, I picked
up my withered
frame, broken
inside but
a strong drive
to fight back.

Something in
my heart went
cold that night,
and I realized
I am beautiful,
even without you,
and I won’t be
waiting here
when you return.

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